I feel like I’d see things sometimes. Am I pathetic or? I mean they’re real, aren’t they?  I don’t know, the endless pain is driving me crazy… Ana is getting more real too. She’s like always there and tells me to stop eating. Today I ate smth for lunch (which was stupid) and she sat there, she stared. She was dissapointed in me and was disgusted. I ate. I can understand her. When I purged she stand directly behind me and said stuff like “That’s all? You horrible failure, purge one more time. That’s not enough”